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Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
12:55 am	soooo yeah so, a lot has been going on lately and there's really too much to put it all here...well at least at this time of night. speaking of which i really should be sleeping now, so if you want to know what's been going on with me lately, get a hold of me somehow. doesn't matter how, phone, aim, etc...i'm not hard to find. Current Mood: thankful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 7th, 2006
10:11 pm	weekend update wells now, i am certainly a happy camper. allow me to elaborate... so i've told the girl how i feel about her. heh, that was an awkward moment, definitely so. but my anxiety is relieved, because the feeling is mutual. i felt so stupid after i told her though, cuz i kinda built it up in a bad way. i should've told her sooner too...oh well. went to the "musicians-at-work" show at school to support the concert choir and all of my friends in it. i was most suprised and pleased to hear them sing "Seasons of Love" from Rent (has to be one of the catchiest songs ever). and i was wrong too...it's not 524,600 minutes but 525,600 minutes. haha silly me, i gotta learn to do my math properly. oh yeah i've also bought an iPod which i got about two weeks ago, and i must say it's worth every penny...boredom be gone!! Somehow a bunch of music majors and i have managed to put a dodgeball team together for the league at my work. So, in a few weeks i'll be in full swing in the league. Hahaha, and our name is the geekiest thing ever, we're called "The Five-Sevens". We don't expect many people to get the name aside from us...most people who would know it as (V7). alas we're the five-sevens because we dominate...i honestly think it was my idea for the name too. dang mornings at McDonalds for breakfast in between Dr. Millers' classes...crazy ideas from them. ahhh suddenly g2g more later... (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
12:58 am	524,600 minutes yes that was a reference to Rent...i just saw it yesterday. wow, such a great movie/show. the music was great, the characters very rememberable, and the story was very interesting. i'm going to have to buy the dvd when it comes out in a few days. also a funny thing about the movie is that the main character Mark looks uncannily like me, or is it vice versa...i look like him? his personality and experiences don't seem all too much different from my own either, which was also kinda strange. oh yes, on request i have remembered that i needed to show my artwork: http://www.onehemophiliac.deviantart.com there's a little bit of everything in there, from old school work, to just random sketches and some old cgi. i had 4 tests this last week, i feel fairly well on them. should find out how they went this week. oh and how about a track i finished up on about a week and a half ago? had been working on it off and on since july, i'm so glad it's done. http://kylejcrb.com/talesproject/Finished/MasterMint.mp3 it's called Crisis Healing Salve but i dunno if that shows up in the id3 tags. whew...it's been a long week. i should sleep now. Current Mood: tired Current Music: PriZm - Take Up the Cross - Simplified Design (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
11:15 pm	Rest In Peace today was just not a good day... family...arguing and tense...too much poking and prodding the dog was put down today, i knew him for 16 years. rest in peace, rest well, feel well and no more pain for you. the decision to do it today was all so quick and :( he'll be better off now. i'm telling myself this now, tommorrow will be a better day. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
12:23 am	soooooooo i dunno!! i'm in that darned mood where i think too much again, at least i think that's what it is. i start overthinking things, which can cause me to worry about what i am planning to do or what is coming up in the near future. argh, super busy and super stressed...my mind constantly flys. i'm surprised i'm actually able to focus enough to really think about certain things. school's back in full swing, and this is contributing to part of the stress...so much to do. combined with the time i have been at work lately, i haven't been around at home to do much of my own work. my dog is finally being put down sometime soon, i don't know when. poor dog, it's his time to go...old man. known him since as long as i can i remember...since i was 4 i believe. again my head is tripping over my heart...or is that the other way around? my heart is tripping over my head. i don't know which it is, but i'm definitely feeling something here. i have to follow up on this...and i don't want to regret not following it up. Current Music: Hale Bopp - Be Absentminded (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 4th, 2005
11:47 pm	regularly schedualled nothing So, i guess it's time for a update...been a month or two since the last one. Where to start?? So, my mind has been fluttering and flying all of the place lately. However, a lot of my thoughts have been on one specific person...yeah...i can only wonder now, daydreaming again. I've only run into this person a couple times, and all were kinda chance at that. I hope i run into this person again. :) Work's been pretty much the same, i just finished working 3 hellish days in a row...the last one being a very long day of over 9 hours and most of it was by myself with a few hundred people in the facility. by the end of it i was about ready to rip some hair out because of how stressful it was. even when i did get all of my delagated work done, i couldn't focus to do my music theory analysis. i don't think i've ever been that frazzled so that i couldn't focus to do work. I registered for school early last week, and paid that day...this left me with little to no money. ah this is sooooo not fun :/ computer was finally upgraded recently, yay! i had the processor, motherboard, and ram upgraded. shortly after i managed to fill my harddrive so i got a hand-me-down harddrive so that was also installed. yay, now i can actually do effects processing and write music without degredation or slowing. until next time :) Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: BeaT - Celestial Fantasia (5:50) (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 8th, 2005
12:16 am	recent updates well now, it's been a while since my last update...what should i talk about? well school is in, work is usual, and car is still annoying. speaking of the car i just recently got a flat tire after going to Mervins to pick up my adjusted watch. as i was walking out i could see my car and noticed the rear left tire just kinda "bulgy" looking...i knew it was a flat. BLAH, lameo. so i put the donut on and just drove on thating hard at getting better at singing...it's damn hard! for a few days til i got the tire plugged at the gas station. Serenity the movie was awesome, despite being sick as hell when seeing it. And not to mention still recovering from it. i had actually lost my voice at one point, and i still sound pretty soft spoken now. i couldn't even sing solfege at all for musicianship on wednesday. i could only hit the low notes, like the first four scale degrees...after that it was just a strech for me. i would open my mouth and expell air as if i would normally to produce a pitch, and nothing would come out. just a mere wimper of air and squeak. that was pretty dang frustrating actually. cuz i've been working hard to get better at singing; it's hard!! birthday came and went, and all was fine and uneventful (which i think is a good thing). i enjoyed my time with my friends and family. my sister has now moved back in, and i no longer have a room to myself anymore. this is so utterly lame, because it feels like i have no space anymore. it's so very claustrophobic in my room now...it's like losing some body part or something. all cramped into one spot and no longer having the freedom that was once there. blah it just sucks. and finally today...today i decided i would like to play in the MTG Ravnica Release Event at "3 Js" in anahiem, which i have played there once in the past. i wasn't exactly excited about they way they run things at 3Js but i figured i'd play anyways, see some people i know, have a good time. Sure that was until about the very end of the whole night, when i was completely done playing. There was still one group still playing, and time had just passed...which at this store is pretty rediculous because they cut it 5 mins shorter then what they're actually supposed to play (50 mins is DCI Standart timelimit, 3Js plays 45 min rounds). So i was telling the guy who was running it(who was going around telling me a few mins prior that time was going to be up in X mins) i told him round was over X mins ago and that he should call time on the people still playing...but he tells me "No, i'm gonna let them play". along with a few other comments i gave him about running a crooked show which is absolutely true, he decided he was gonna blow up and ban me, so i can no longer play there anymore. I thought this was hilarious, because earlier on other people who regularly play there were telling me about how they didn't like how it is run there. So immediately when someone decides to bring up an important and very valid point, there's no go with it. Whatever, they don't need my business that's fine. there are plenty of other places to play in the area. but i digressed from the event again...so anyways after that happened a familiar face whom i had seen at a few places before, and have talked to a bit in the past came over and started to "console" me. she put her arm around me and walked me away from everyone else and we chatted friendly about it all. and out of total randomness i got her number, so i guess getting banned wasn't really a bad thing at all. haha, all in all it's just a real big laugh for me, and also pretty rediculous too. but alas i guess i say the things that need to be said even though they probably shouldn't be...me and my big mouth getting me into trouble once again. wow that was a long post, i guess that's what happens when i'm downloading a 46 mb file on dialup...gives time to do something that doesn't take up bandwidth. until next time... Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Darangen "Falling Back" (Gerudo Valley Remix) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 13th, 2005
12:00 am	symmetry vs. asymmetry i saw this on someone else's journal and i liked the idea, so YOINK! 3 years ago in july: i was enjoying the freedom of not being in high school as well as the bondage of work. 2 years ago in july: i was wondering where i was going in college and weither i was fitting in or not. 1 year ago in july: i was planning a lot of things, including a trip to disneyland... today: trip to disneyland on thursday? interesting symmetry. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Bladiator - A Dangerless Road (SMRPG) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
3:36 pm	the latest... well now, what's new? i've spent the last two weeks with my car going in and out of the shop, the result, car is fixed...my pockets now -$1500 next week is the 4th of july and as always i'm working on the 4th. this time it's from 3pm to midnight. at least i get to stay underneath a canopy the whole time, so i won't be in the sun. still gonna be a long day. july 6th is a day i've been looking forward to, since last september when i found out about video games live. www.videogameslive.com if you've never heard of it, but in a nutshell it's live video game music performed live by the LA symphonic orchestra...it's going to be freaking awesome. i'm certainly surprised by the amount of classic games that are going to be covered in it. Mario, Zelda, Final Fantasy, Sonic, Castlevania...i can't wait. first off i gotta find someone to work for me on that night. shouldn't be a problem though. oh btw, 30, 4-6 year olds drove me insane...and now i have to do that again in a month...*sigh* that's gonna suck. oh well, at least i'll be getting some more sun, so i won't be pale white, LOL. oh and this remix i've been working on for a while now...doom, is driving me insane. mastering it has been a bitch, and everytime i do something, a new problem pops up. ugh gonna need help soon. anyways that's all for now =) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: chthonic - Starbound ~ Theme of Dream Warrior (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
11:14 pm	The Internet is Serious Business If there is at least one person in your life whom you consider a close friend, and whom you would not have met without the Internet, then please post this sentence in your journal. Yep, life shaping and changing ones! =) Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: analoq - Road Rash sierra navada-tan OC Remix (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 8th, 2005
4:23 pm	OMFG AGAIN! OMFG, IT'S HAPPENING AGAIN! I just got my car fixed two weeks ago, and on prompt timing, it decides to do the same fucking thing again!!!!!! Words cannot say how frustrated and angry i am right now. I am going to freaking loose my mind! I can't take it anymore. My mindset is unstable and i'm going to hurt something or myselfff....iiiieeeeee Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
11:29 pm	wow millions of februrary birthdays out there, happy birthday to those who are aquarius'. well, with my own strange news now...as of March 1st 2005 i will once again, have a room to myself. haha crazy, my sister is moving out. Never saw this one coming, though i hardly think she will last on her own. Whatever, i can't complain too much, because for the first time in over a decade i will have a room to myself once again. crazy, i think, how it all suddenly changes. oh yes, and strangely after sunday, and the horrible service that myself and friends recieved at a said japanese restaurant, i got pretty sick...sick to the point of not being able to move without a lot of physical exertion. And strangely 3 days later i feel fine, i was worried that it would last much longer then that. feeling much better now fortunately. valentines day, just another day. umm...same ol' work nothing new there. uhh, i dunno what to say really, haha...come to think of it...that has been my common response as of late. People will ask me how i'm doing or some random innocent question, and my response, "I dunno." How very typical of me, it's almost like i'm subconsciously just not responding with how i really may be. I dunno, holy moley that was like super psychological self analysis right there. Is it true though? Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 15th, 2004
2:23 pm	today i'm finished with my semester horraj for me! oh here's a lil survey thingy, stolen... ( Read more... ) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: LotR : RotK - Howard Shore - Minas Tirith (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 18th, 2004
10:05 pm	well i know my future well my future isn't too bright, at least considering for near future. stuff that happened today showed me what it's gonna be like . . . lonely. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
12:17 pm	haha whatever well, saw a neat lil' survey on Jen's LJ so i figured i'd try it too...here's the result... You represent... kindness. You're a very gentle, kind, and caring individual. You truely care about people and are generally well-liked. Though sometimes you may be perceived as weak, you truely have a strong heart and a good desire to help others. What feeling do you represent? brought to you by Quizilla gee...i wish more people would see this in me Current Mood: blank Current Music: Sadorf - Ecco 2: The Tides of Time Medusa Mix_OC_Remix (Comment on this)
Monday, October 11th, 2004
2:32 pm	haha this definately deserves an entry... hahaha, this definitely deserves a lj post... ( Read more... ) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 6th, 2004
1:42 am	yea ok, i'm writing at 2am because i'm bored...i really don't know. hmm...hmm..what to talk about heh, i just don't know.. i try to understand, but it's impossible to comprehend, i don't even understand my own thoughts usually. why i feel the way i do about certain things confuses me often. i just don't know what to think about certain things. that's probably a really bad thing too. umm...like yea whatever (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
2:09 pm	omg borked OMG, my car is BORKED again. OMG i just want to kill something, i'm so fucking annoyed with it all. Super stressed out because of the car and starting school this week. Turns out the problem with my car is the fucking fuel injector, which turns out to happen to be recalled on my fucking car...MOTHER FUCKING NISSAN omg, recalled fuel injectors. UGH, my car is over at the shop now, i don't have enough to pay for the fix either =( i'm so totally screwed. Damn, i had mentioned about hoping august would be better then july...well it has been just as bad, what a shitty summer. i want my life, head, and heart back. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Noir - Freya - Not for the Faint of Heart (0.5a) (7:54) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, August 6th, 2004
8:06 pm	more philosophical "ish" Most of us, will look back upon previous times to reflect upon what happened. Sometimes we have happy memories, sometimes they are sad. It is usually the bad memories where we look back and say, "What if?" What if I hadn't done that one thing wrong, or hadn't have said that one innappropriate comment? Sometimes we know what kind of direct change would have happened. Other times we may not know what changes would occur. Yea sure, it's nice to think about what might have been, but then we realize we cannot change the past...we can't make things different. The only thing we can do is change the way we deal with the past. Let go, move on, and forget about it...those are the things we should do. Though, there are plenty of people who can't let go, move on, and forget about it. In some ways, i can be one of those people who can't deal with the past. There are sometimes it can come back to haunt me, and often out of the blue too. I guess we just try to forget about it, but sometimes it's really hard to forget and block it out of memory. The ones that do get suppressed only resurface at the worst times, heh...kinda explain the mood-swings i guess.... yea, i've been sitting around thinking too much, had one too many weird dreams, and my ex has been calling (not to mention, having a dream with her in it, bizzare) oh and if this post seems kinda weird, it's only cuz i saw "The Butterfly Effect" today. with rememberance, -Chris Current Mood: confused Current Music: Ailsean - Terra in Black OCRemix (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
11:48 pm	another one ( Read more... ) (Comment on this)